Not only do I have a fever with a little sore throat right now, but I also am finding myself really home sick. I'm sad to say that because I thought Utah would just be Happyville for me. But today is one of those days I really wish I was home. Which is kinda funny considering those last couple months I was really excited to leave. So I guess that leaves me in this position: Be grateful for whatever you have when you have it. Having that little push of an attitude of gratitude will make you see that everything you have is enough.
So today I'm really grateful for the sunshine. I'm grateful for the mountains. I'm grateful for the fact that I'll be starting my new job next week. I'm grateful to have some really great friends here. I'm grateful for my bed, and my mug full of warm tea.
Life is always really good, I guess we have just have to make that choice though, to see the great things in our lives. I'm really kicking myself for wishing all that time away with my family, or at least that is how I'm feeling today. I knew I was going to have these days, where I wish I was at home, but I know that if I was at home, I'd be wishing to be here. So it's kinda a catch 22. Instead of counting down until August, (keeping my fingers crossed that'll be when I fly home next) I'm just really going to enjoy being here in Utah. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to make that choice to be grateful for all the wonderful people and things in my life. Instead of being so self consumed, or so self enveloped, I'm really going to try to be focusing on the people I've been blessed with in my life. My mom always taught me when I was feeling sad, or just unhappy the best thing to do is serve someone else because then you become less concerned for yourself, and more concerned with others. You have to do it for the right reasons though, to make other people happy for just the sake of loving them.
