THIS LIFE I AM CHOOSING.

We choose the choices we make.
Now I will be very honest, some of the choices I have made in my life have been the wrong ones, completely and entirely wrong. I have made major mistakes. There have been times that I have allowed myself to give up, to stop trying, and just become empty. But I have something to tell you, each moment is an opportunity to turn your life around. No sin is too big for the Atonement. Jesus Christ died for you, He died for me. He died so that we could repent, and that's what I did, and I'm still doing, because repentance is a beautiful process to be continuously made holy, to return to Him. Everyday I am faced with new mountains to climb, and everyday I make the choice whether or not I want to make those steps towards progress. We cannot be idle. We cannot just stand back and let the waves of life erode our faith, we have to keep working on making the right choices, the best choices, so we can keep moving forward. The Lord has never given up on me, and He never will, so why should I give up on myself?
I have felt alone, I have felt scared, I have even felt bitter, because I allowed my lack of faith to blind me, and I made the choice to be afraid, and to doubt the plan that Christ created for me personally. In the times that I so badly just want every problem I'm facing to disappear, I can't help but think of a scripture in Doctrine & Covenants, Section 122, "that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good."
Do not let past mistakes, past sins be a roadblock for your divine potential. Do not let Satan creep in and destroy your self-worth. Do not let the adversary bully you. You are a child of God, you are destined for greatness. Do not push the Savior aside. Do not ignore what he has in store for you. Do not hide your light of Christ under a bushel. He can heal you, if you allow Him too. He can make you whole, if you let Him. That is the only choice you have to make, "will I allow Christ be the center of who I am?"
The Lord will only give us what He knows we can take. I have spent a great deal of time this past week in my bedroom, crying and trying to understand why certain things have happened in my life, why certain things have been happening, why I've been going through certain struggles. Why my trials seem to be so much greater than what I think I can handle. My answer came today: To be humbled.
This is an opportunity for me to draw closer to Christ, to rely on Him.
Things will happen that will make you question, "How can I do this on my own?" You don't have to, you won't have to. He is standing there waiting, and most times, His arms are already stretched forth, carrying you through the hardest things you will ever face. Life is not easy, we must not give up on ourselves, on the promises we made with Him in Heaven. He wants us to be happy, and we can be, if we just place all our fears aside, and walk the path we know we should be on.
He said, we were sent here to be tested. We must patiently endure. We must find, and strengthen our testimonies through trials. We must actively engage ourselves to feel the spirit. We must keep going.
Hard times will still come, but we can choose to find peace and happiness in Christ and in our Heavenly Father.