RAMBLING WORDS TO THE UNKNOWN AND THE WANTED

BECAUSE its 2am, I can't sleep, and I've been thinking about a time where I would write these letters that often seemed so romantic in the moment, and maybe a tad cliche as well. But nonetheless they are my letters, my thoughts, and my grip on what it is that I really wanted. My heart has been doing some healing, and some butterflies. I've been giving some thought to past relationships, and new relationships, the old summer flings, the winter mishaps, and the weird in between things. What I got out of all those things and what it is I want so badly in this particular moment.

*At first this started out as a letter to myself, it really became so clear that five, even ten years from now we would sit on our thrifted couch in our living room, and I would be complaining that my feet were cold because they always are and you would just laugh and ask why I wasn't wearing socks. Most of the time these ramblings turn into something so much deeper, but always for myself, and since that is why I began writing in the first place, since the raw, the real, and the details of the delicate is why I ever began writing in the first place I figured that I wouldn't hide these thoughts in the drafts pile.

I want someone whose going to take care of me.
I want someone whose a fixer, not a runner. You know what I mean? I want you to try and fix my car, Even if you have no idea what you're doing, even if you haven't the slightest idea about cars, I want you to just try. I guess there's a principle for me, I want someone whose a hard worker. I want day old scruff kisses and dry overworked hands to hold me in your strong arms. I want to be taken care of. I want someone who will try and talk me out the stupid things I'm going to do and if they can't, they join right in. I want someone to stand by my side.
Because when I think about it, I don't really care if you wear Kenneth Cole, I don't really care if you have connections. I don't need you to try so hard to be cool like so many people do. I just want you to be you. I want someone true and genuine - to themselves and to me. I want someone whose kind.
I want someone who understands that life is a lot of work, and they're okay working towards the best things in life. I want to be with someone who can be my rock. Someone I can depend on. Someone who knows that they can depend on me too. Someone whose going to be weird with me, and laugh too much. Someone who at the end of the day will settle my restless soul. Someone who likes to go on drives and where silence is okay. Someone where I don't feel like I have to scrounge for conversation. I want someone crazy about me, and someone who wants me to be crazy about them too. I want someone passionate. I want someone who stands up for what they love, who they love.  I want to thank you for this, for all these things I just wrote, because if someday when we're sitting on that couch and we're laughing about my cold feet, you'll know that I wrote this letter especially for you.