THE ONE ON HEALING

It's been a crazy roller coaster of a month, full on the focus of being happy with where I am at in my life, and on putting myself back together. I went to this conference last night, and SHERI DEW spoke. Wow, let me just say that woman is amazing. It was like she had spent the past week in my little brain and told me every emotion and thought that had been going through my head as she spoke of feeling "inadequate", and "broken", "alone" and well, you get the idea. She emphasized over and over the simple truths that I often forget, that I am an elect lady, a child of God. That when I feel alone or overwhelmed that I have someone who will not leave my side, and that He is only a prayer away. Forgiving myself is something I have a hard time with, which isn't the greatest when I am nowhere near to being perfect. But that's the wonderful thing about Jesus Christ, and our Heavenly Father, they do not expect me to be perfect, that they understand my situation, and my desires to do the best I can, and to be the best I can be. When I make a mistake, they are there to lift me back up with that beautiful thing called repentance. When we keep a focus on who we really are, that will drive us and our continuing purpose forward. She emphasized on the Lord's purpose in our lives is to heal our broken hearts, and mend our wounded souls. He has the ability to turn our weaknesses into strengths. The truth of the matter is, no one can take your place, just like no one can take my place. There are peoples lives, there are certain people who I will impact, just as certain people have been placed in my life to impact me. Each of our lives have different paths, and just because we think they are supposed to go left when they decide to go right, doesn't mean it's the end of the world, it just means our plans weren't the best plans. Faith in God, includes absolute faith in His perfect timing. My life is nowhere near to what I thought it would be when I was sixteen and planning out my future, but I am so grateful for the experience I have had, the people I have met, the blessings I have received and the lessons I have learned. This life is a continuing journey to happiness. These are the things that shape me, mold me, and make me who I am today, a daughter of a loving God. Being an independent person, it's hard to just let go, and ask for His help and guidance, especially when I think I can do it all on my own, but there is nothing so sweet than feeling peace and completeness during times of trial. If there is one thing I have learned from my 19 years, it's that I can do hard things, but only with the Lord by my side, and with Him, I can feel whole again, and at peace.