THE ONE ABOUT LETTING HIM GO

More than ever this post is really hitting home for me this week, I've been having this inner struggle debating with myself if I post this or not. It's been in the works since last Sunday, and it's been nagging at me, re-entering in my thoughts. About two weeks ago I closed a chapter and had to walk away from a person that I loved dearly, I am posting this because it too is a significant part of my life. That's the whole point of this blog, it's about growing. As hard as it is to let go, I know in the end, it's the right thing to do. This post is for myself, but also ladies and gents alike, for the people who have been hurt, for the people who have been standing right where I am now.
I think before we can find that person made especially for us, we all have to take that long journey, some only have to walk it once, others have to make the trek over and over again, the one where you keep having to ask yourself, "do I stay on this path, or do I pick up my feet, and start a new one?"

It's about loving someone who can't love you the way you need to be loved, maybe because they don't know how to love themselves yet, or maybe because you both just see things on complete opposite spectrums. It's about loving someone who always puts you on the back burner. It's about loving someone who isn't being honest with you, or even some cases themselves. It's about loving someone whose not worth the tears, the anguish, and the repetitive gut wrenching heart ache. 

It's about learning to say goodbye, and learning to let go. 

I've been there, I've stood in that fork in the road. It's always one thing or another. You convince yourself this can work, you talk yourself into giving it one more chance. At one point you felt the happiest you've ever been, and you can't help but wonder, "if I just put my walls down again, and give a little bit more of myself, would this relationship work?"
I jumped willingly into that puddle of denial, not even taking a second to see just how deep the water was.
Please, don't make the same mistake I made and put yourself through more pain. Have enough self respect, have enough self love, have enough courage to walk away. You can only tread those waters of disappointment, of dishonesty for so long before you end up drowning. 

You deserve the world. You deserve someone who will make time for you and your needs, someone whose interested in what you have to say, someone who only wants to be with you, someone who can't physically live without you. Someone who calls you just to say, "I love you, I miss you, you are important to me, I just wanted to hear your voice." You deserve that, and so do I.