It's been about two and a half weeks since we broke things off, and it's a little weird how time can seem so slow, and so fast at the same time. I've had some of the best memories, mixed in with the most lonely feelings. I'm just being 100 percent honest. I've learned somethings and rediscovered somethings, I'm sure I'll keep doing so as well. Trying always to embrace the moment, and live life happily. I've kinda removed myself from the dating radar because I didn't want to rebound, jump into something just so I would have someone, anyone, to fill in my void significant other. But I feel as I'm been dealing with this healing time, I've gained a new and better sense of self love. I guess this is me throwing on my googles and jumping back into the dating pool, and by jumping I mean taking baby steps in, literally going in one toe at a time.
Last night I met a man, I could say boy, but he's too old for that, or is he?
(These are the kinda things I struggle with as I'm getting older - but nonetheless I am embracing it)
Anyways, I met this guy.
Briefly and vaguely. I was intrigued, and I wanted to show this person I was.
How do we show that we're eager without showing that we are too eager? A constant topic in our apartment lately, followed with questions of, "How can I show them I'm interested?", "how can I get this person to get the hint that I'd really like for them to just ask me on one little date?", or even, "I just want to go to dinner with them or something, anything!" I am pleased to say these two next words will change everything,
Ask him.
I know what you're thinking, because I was thinking the same thing, and I have thought the same thing for months and years now. I'm usually very old fashioned, and I would have never ever thought it to be a possibility for me to ask the guy on a date. But as I reflected on it, why wouldn't I? Why is that men are expected to be first ones to show interest? Why can't I show how I'm feeling before seeing if they are interested in me first? Why is it that I expect them to be brave and vulnerable every single time, time and time again? The truth of the matter is, I don't. At least not anymore. Now I'm not saying that I'm going to ask a guy on a date once a week, or even once a month. But if I happen to have the chance where I meet someone, and they really make an impact, they make a statement, enough to linger in my thoughts, I'm not going to just sit back and wait for that other person to be brave. I can be brave too. More chances than not, they might be nervous with a thousand questions running in their mind just like me, or maybe I just didn't make an impact for them. But if no one makes a move how will you ever know?
Anyways, I got his number, I texted him (pathetic I know considering I hate that), and I asked him on a date.
I was a little nervous, okay I was a lot of nervous hence why I texted him.
But here's the thing, he might not even show up, or he might just come to be nice.
Let's say he show up, worst case scenario: he doesn't show up. That's all I have to lose.
Let's say he does come, best case scenario: we have a great time, and become really great friends.
That's what I have to gain.
Now I'm not sure about you, but I think me, myself, and I will take our chances on the possibility that something wonderful could come out of this, even if that means its a one night date full of laughs or just awkward moments that will be funny memories to look back on. I'll take it.
